The Hurt Of Loss In Our Lives

It is hard to explain the burden placed on my heart this week. It is also hard to not be angry and to try to find reason and meaning behind the hurt and loss that I and many others are feeling today. More than anything it is hard to fathom the pain that those left behind are meant to suffer and the big question of course being why? Why should this happen to such a nice and loving family? Why so many tragic endings in one small family circle? Especially a family that was so looked up to. In a family that many wished they had and could be a part of. Is it irony? Is it comic? Is it some sick twisted fate? Will we ever know? Probably not. I cannot let myself wallow in it or even dwell on it or ask why for too long or I will get sucked into the abyss of wanting to know why and to find answers that seem unobtainable with out concrete proof.Therefore, all I can do is pray. Pray for peace and understanding to come to me and to those who suffer together or alone through this trying time in life. Even if substantial answers are not granted at least peace will come into our hearts for now. For now, we can have a little peace until that day comes when we can ask in person all our unanswered worries and questions.